water2wine,
We'll be upholding you in prayer here and praying for answers. Our assistant pastor's wife (and a dear homeschooling mom) has had fibromyalsia for quite some time. She is in her mid 40's and is a wonderful source of encouragement to so many at church. Most have no idea that she has fibromyalsia. If this ends up to be your diagnosis, I'll certainly put you in touch with her!
I understand about children being worried when their parents have health concerns. The older ones often feel it the most. When my hubby had his heart attack and was at the heart hospital at the same time I was hospitalized (at a different hospital) for preterm labor (and high blood pressure), my oldest son became the most worried, because we had shared the most with him about what was going on. I will tell you that for us, when the situation was beyond our control and I couldn't figure it out, I spent much time on my knees. I knew the Lord would take us through that time, but I could not figure out how it could possibly work for good? Now we are 2 and 1/2 years past that time in our lives, and I will say that we have made some major life changes that we wouldn't have made without those health concerns.
We try to have a slower start to our days. My husband has scheduled extended time in the mornings for Bible, prayer, jogging, etc. My husband has also had a job change, which has been excellent and much less stressful for him! We try to look at our days differently, and realize how important it is to glorify the Lord with the time that we have here. We do what we can each day and by 10:00 or 10:30 at night we try to put aside the rest to have time for my husband and I alone. My husband and I also go on a date once each week.
My boys are in charge of making lunch and many household chores. We do have a cleaning lady who comes once every 3 weeks that cleans the entire house from top to bottom for $35.00. But, whatever you must end up doing to accomodate your health, know that some change is probably in order when a health issue like this presents itself. It is important to find some small ways to take a little time for yourself to unwind.
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We do lapse back into our "rat race" lifestyle at times, and so this is a good reminder to me to get my priorities right once again!
You are wonderful testament of a Christian woman to me and to all of the moms on the board, and I know that God is glorified through your strengths and through your weaknesses too!
We'll be praying for you!
Blessings,
Carrie