First off.. Jan turned out to be a very difficult month. The week we moved my mother in my older half sister, my mother's 2nd oldest daughter was hospitalized. Sharon, had also been battling lung cancer, and sadly Sharon went on to be with the Lord on the 18th of January. Sharon was 53. This hit my mother very very hard...not only had she lost a child, but she is giving up independence by living with us (she's approaching 72), and is also battling lung cancer. We went through 3 weeks of watching her drown in despair, and up until last Friday night I was afraid we would have had to do an intervention...she wasn't eating, taking her meds right.. it seemed her dominate desire was to just die too...My heart never felt so broken... nor have I ever felt so helpless in my life..its been like watching a person drown even though you throw all the life perservers and ropes out to them, you still are helpless to save them....
God is working...He doesn't quit
God is listening... I believe to my core he has heard my cries
God is changing .....me...my family... how I am viewing life as a whole...how we view each other,
and seeing God pull us closer together at least between my daughters and husband and me...has once again rocked my sense of knowing who He is..to knowing and believing even more that He waits on me to just lay it down at His feet...and trust...
I am asking prayer for my mom. I am not entirely sure if she is sure of her salvation or of her relationship w/ Christ. I believe she is still angry, and has no desire to go to church. We are also working through an issue that I don't care to have in my home, but I'm praying God will eventually give her wisdom that its not good for her body...but thankfully she has quit smoking..so thats part of that prayer answered. We are looking at surgery within the next two weeks.




Anyways... we are just now finishing week 14 of CTC... (we started CTC back around mid Aug.) ...3 weeks behind in the reading of God King... and IYW.. slowed to a turtle's crawl. In effort to not feel overwhelmed, I cut out her spelling and grammar program (CLP and will hopefully add it back in next year) and am totaly relying on Learning Language Arts Through Literature- tan book 6th grade lvl. (which does have grammar and spelling worked in, just not as intense as the CLP books). I had also felt that the CLP applications of grammar and spelling book 7 (both of which are supposed to be 7th grade lvl) were too much and overwhelming for she would do these lessons in near tears. I had her using it in hopes to bolster and improve her skills, but it seems to be a bit difficult for her. I did pull Easy Grammar 5/6 back out and correlating it with grammar activities from her LLATL. This has made me look and reevaluate a little closer at my dd's skills, I think she may be more 5th/6th lvld. Am now using the science portion of CTC, back tracking so she is on week 3 day 4...this is the one thing she's absolutely happy about doing (my animal nut

I also took some time and looked back at our grade years... Age wise she should be classed as a 7th grader, but academically we did this...
2009-2010 current 7th
2008-2009 6th we jumped her so she could be age wise with her peers in church/and other functions--
2007-2008 4th
2006-2007 3rd grade--again, we had to deprogram and rebuild from a bad experience in our local school system
2005-2006 3rd grade -- public school system--- reasons, thought it would be best "socially", and we were having major domestic issues..turned out we discovered that homeschooling (and later knowing really it should have been God, but God used homeschooling as way to start getting us to listen again..long story another day lol) was a glue for our family.
2004-2005 2nd
2003-2004 1st
2002- 2003 K
My husband and I both feel that she may benefit from adding an extra "7th grade" year to her academic years, especially with the intensity of the home life we are in the middle of. I am beginning to think I made an error in judgement, that I should have left her on the track she was, and not fall "prey" to having her "advanced" based on age.
Advice... comments... ???
Thanks for listening.. and to those who pray.... thank you ...
Jasmine