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I've posted about my health struggles with 2 autoimmune diseases,Graves/Hyperthyroid and Lupus, to you ladies and asked for prayers. Thank you so much for the encouragement. Now, this Graves Disease issue is affecting me in that with hyperthyroidism, you can have sore throat and such. Well, my throat often is swollen and sore but not the kind of typical sore throat...more like I sent it off to do a major exercise class for me and it came back swollen, tight, and bruised all over. Up to my jaws and even deep into my ears!
So, that, plus the heart issues from it, which seem to be calming down now, but a bit too much (starting to have bouts of too SLOW instead of fast)...I'm getting the fatigue, aches and pains, joint and muscles, and now spine and neck...that's bother me a while but not this bad. I can feel my hip protest when I go upstairs or down. I'm much slower. My weak muscles can't even let me lift my 2yo and fly him around like I enjoyed doing. I know much of this overlaps with the Lupus. I'm not being treated yet for the lupus, but will get my thyroid checked out next week to adjust meds if needed. Hopefully we will then look into Lupus for sure.
Between now and then...I can barely do readalouds. All my voice is spent with normal daily chatter and correction etc....I read a very short little level 2 reader to my two youngest tonight and that was all i could do. I'm not sure really why. I just love living books, but I really can't read them to them. My oldest can do more of her own readings, but I've got the next in line in the emerging reader set. WHAT do I do?! I Can't read aloud to them regualarly, I can't tack on more school for oldest to have to read to the youngers at this time. WE are working on our own battles with her and do not want to stop that. I dont' particularly enjoy reading aloud anyway (don't beat me!
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Well...what now? I'm doing just the 3Rs with DS5 and DS8 and letting DD10 take off with more of her own and diving into PHFHG as able right now. She's ready for more...CTC even, but we will hang here and she what comes up it. The little ones though...I cant read aloud for them to do any HOD level with them right now. I explain math and phonics, etc and that's about all I've got. I realize the DS8 is only in 2nd grade and that it's really ok tojust have him reading and learning math and handwriting...I do want more for him though. He's a thinker...a reader...a planner...he wants to be active and artisitic...i'm not giving him that without BHFHG. Maybe I should have started him in Beyond anyway...but now I'm at a loss about what to to. It's not even about placemet...he could do Bhfhg half speed and be fine, but it is ME as the teacher that has to real aloud to all the kids each day. It so very doable when you aren't dealing with major autoimmune health issues taking their tolls on you. It's not so much doable when you have been beat down, refused sleep , and given multi-system involvement issues and know that it's your own body beating it down. Killing it. How can I continue a living books program if I can't read them their living books?!
Everything is so off...we are not on the same guide page for any subjects...there are tabs galore. I want what HOD has. I dont know how to get that out of it given my situation. I just keep thinking I have to just swtich to textbooks and add in some great readers from the HOD book shop...stick with DITHOR together though. It's just so hard right now, ladies. I've been on bedrest and this is so not that. This is like...you don't look sick, no one understands that you could look so good and yet be so very sick at the same time, so they see you and expect you to be all pulled together, planned well, and ready to run with it...whatever IT is. Mine is housework and school. I JUST CAN"T RUN WITH IT. I'm slower than a great great granny and I'm 31. I have better moments and I'm learning I pay for them later if I take those better moments in full for what they are less I borrow too many good moments inadvance. It makes no sense, but that's how it goes. Help? I know now why my kids haen't been able to get through a single level start to finish b/c we have no way to stay on track with it all. I feel horrible! 10 moves in 8 years...
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